Thursday, September 18, 2008,1:43 AM
its hard to understand some people. they just misinterpret stuff that you say and start to say that you're trying to boast or what not. its kinda surprising that some people whom you thought were supposedly your close friends could just shut the door in your face and like " just f off". they could also be joking and you could be the one misinterpreting what they're saying and in a way, shoot yourself in the head. i guess thats just how some people are.
anyway, today got back my maths results and i'm kinda disappointed because i only scored 73 which is only an A2. i scored A1 during mid year with 81. then during english class, mr james was saying that he marked 3 of the 5 composition questions and he marked the question i answered. he said that for that question, the average marks are around 20 which i suppose is not so bad la. oh and i also got back my chem results. i didn't get back the actual results cos mrs quek didn't tell us how much we scored for spa which needed to be used for calculating the total marks. there's also this thing about ben chew. i'm not here to gossip or what not but hey, i'm just stating facts. apparently he got As for all his sciences and he's been going around telling apparently the whole world about it, in other words, boasting about it. he kinda like does it sub-consciously and doesn't really know that he's offending pockets of people. let me give you an example of what he did. he told derek, "eh your best science only score C5 ar?" i mean like. c'mon, we're classmates. how the hell could you do this? getting good grades does not mean that you're given the right to go around boasting about it and putting people who scored lower than you down. right? if you do it to people who do that to you constantly, i think its okay but dude, has derek or whoever done anything to you? answer: no. so that doesn't warrant you the right to do such fucked up things. so please, get this straight and go reflect upon your actions. thats if you read this.
i realised today that i've got a lot of things to improve on and its about time to start. no more messing around. 27 days left. really need to work hard. its like all the pressure's on me. i doubt my parents gave so much pressure to my brother compared to me. sometimes i just wonder why my parents treat my brother and i so differently. its as though they don't care about him. hm. i guess this pressure's the reason why i'm having this really bad thumping pain in the back of my head.
If only you knew...
